Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Skipd a beat...

Ppl were waiting for 2012...the end of the world according to the Mayan calendar...for the Exceptional....2012 occurred yesterday ( March 15 2010) the illusion that i was contemplating became reality...harder than rock....yet im more elastic than a rubber band...y? does that person have that much power...that much control over me? or was my expectations set too high...or was it cuz i still dont understand why it happend....questions and answers r a part of our day to day activities...we ask questions and we expect to receive a question...how would it feel if questions were asked but no answers were given...and those questions will remain buried in side me like a bone that i can never pull free....

it hurt...i thought the first time was bad...but this is worst...i put all my chips in....finally...i had to file for bankruptcy. this is going to be hard for me....its going to take time, determination, and really strong self control to pass this heavy burden from me....things happen for reasons...i 100% believe that statement....but now...i feel like it is a lie passed on from generation to generation....


time will show the winner....

Thursday, February 25, 2010

it just hit me...

today was the day... :(

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Illusions

If you check what an illusion means on www.m-w.com: : the state or fact of being intellectually deceived or misled....

Life is full of illusions...we as human being are illusions to each other...we act in a certain way...we feel a certain way to each other...but none of it is the truth...none of it is what defines that person...no1 will know truely know a person until they switch souls with them...but technology hasnt given us that power...yet....y does The Exceptional write about illusions? Most illusions are negative....some are positive...i feel for an illusion...i felt at one point that it was too good to be true...days passed by...weeks....months...and the whole time it was an illusion...let me be more specific about the illusion so that it can make sense to those living outside...trust was involved....sacrifices were made --past & present --- money was spent...time was wasted...the organ ppl call the heart disappeared...and nvr came back...for i fear the worse...i fear that my easporteight-eight friend might not see it again...i fear that the gap was left would start to fill up with murky supstances that would harden up and cause pain to the beloved...

the air was breathed out...blood was sipped up like a coffee drink..eyes dimmed to their lowest...energy went against the Laws... who is to blame? the victim or the illusionist?

both....